The Good Ole Days

A friend of mine sent me this picture. I'm pretty sure it was around 1982. That was yet antother tumultuous time of my life. There was a lot going on but, I can definitely say I was pretty driven. My dedication to music back then was center of my being. I was in my late 20's and even though it was a tough time for us financially we were able to get by. I couldn't imagine back then that 30 years later what would be in store for me. I think the most amazing thing is how much the computor would become my center of life. I had been introduced back then to computors, but to me they were just a stupid little radio shack toy that was doomed to go the way of the "Pet Rock". I didn't grasp back then the potential it would have. I got my first computor in 1991. I was completely enthralled! I dove into it and I realized the potential for writing music. It really inspired me and changed my life profoundly. In the late 90's and early 2000/2005 I was probably at my most creative.

I've kind of burned out a bit in the last 2 years though. I'm having a real hard time finding my creative groove and I feel like I'm really having to force it. I finally understand how many great muscians just drop off the radar. It seems that creative growth and performance ability really slow down as you get older. It's kind of sad, I feel like I just get bored with what I'm doing and lose interest easier. I'm hoping that my entusiasm comes back.

Today was my last weekend to take it easy for awhile. I have to face my new job tomorrow and it's going to be really tough. We decided to take it easy and go for a mellow ride in the park. We stopped at a hot dog stand grabbed a couple of dogs and sat out by the arboretum in the quiet with the flowers and humming birds all around.

I kind of miss the old days. I kind of wish I could go back. I'm really starting to sound like an old man...